I'm in a weird place right now. Usually, I tend to be optimistic in my outlook, and genuinely believe that everything will work out. I try not to sweat things or stress things, and I just try to be mellow in my everyday activity.
But right now I'm bummed out. There was this one thing that I swore was going to happen, but I'm doubtful that it will come to pass now. I mean, I'm talking, I believed it with all of my core, despite all indications to the contrary. But finally, something occurred that appears to be the straw that broke the camel's back and now I'm basically without the thing that was the light at the end of my tunnel. (Man, I totally wish I could have crammed in more clichés in that last sentence.)
As a result I've been in a real down mood. The music that I've been listening to for the past few days isn't necessarily the stuff that's going to make me feel better; in fact, it might feed my melancholy into a full-blown depression. But it's what I want to listen to, I'm not quite sure I want to get over it right now, I sort of want to respect that dream of mine has died and will mourn it accordingly.
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